do you really love me?

so on friday at my school we celabrated v-day. i was not excited because i hate the “holiday” GO! single awarness day! ya! well i found out the day before that i was getting a val-o-gram which is were someone who likes you or is your friend can send you a song to be sung by the chior. i got the song angle and they came in a sang it to me and it was really nice i loved it! but i don’t know who sent it to me because the name was blank. so i asked around to find who it was and it turns out that my friend amega sent it. or so i thought? thats what everyone said because they saw her buy in for me, so it has to be her. Right? wrong. i talked to amega about it and she said she did buy for me but not with her money and someone told her to buy it for me, she said it was a really shy guy that liked me, but was to scared to tell me. Are the guys at my school crazy? so far the guys that like me has come to 4 guys. sam this shy guy the guy in my art class and the guy in my P.E. class. a year ago i bet you anything that none of these guys would even look at me much less like me! before i stared this year as a freshman in high school i was in middle school and i always had my hair up i was self conscious about my body because i was “developing” i was awkward, shy and did not show off my body at all. then i started high school and i told my self that i would never dress the same act the same or be self conscious about my body ever again!!

i cut my hair, went to trendy stores to buy clothes like forever 21, plato’s closet, love culture. became more outgoing and friendly. i did a complete 360 into the person i am today.

the thing that really bugs me is that i don’t think that i would have as many friends or guys that like me today if i didn’t do that. unfortunately this has taught me that beauty really is skin deep because 100% of the guys that do like me have liked me before they even had a conversation with me. all of my friends say i should be happy that 4 guys like me much less 1 but im not because if i didn’t change they wouldn’t have even given me the time of day!