so uninspired, it hurts.

i honesty don’t know what i am doing or how i am feeling right not but i have kept my promise. enough said about that for now.

my sister. i think she forgets that i have feelings and i am tired of dealing with it. i just look at her and bite my tounge, when really i want to punch her in the face! Every day i deal with “Your so rude” or “i hate you”or “your a horrible person” it is getting to a point where it is eating me up. i am staring to resent her. i go to school with my sister she is a senoir and everyone expects something from me because i am her sister whether it be an A+ student or a bitch and i get judged because of her. and its not fair. everyone thinks she is an angle and i am satan when it is the opposite i feel like i have to fight for my own identity and she still doesn’t get it. i try to talk to her about it and all i get is a “your a horrible person at least im nice.” she just doesn’t understand. i am just tired of everything. i want to go to sleep and dream forever i don’t think she ever will!

on a more happy note!

i went to school today and… i am so in LOVE with you! i can’t stop thinking/wanting/needing you. i just want to be with you every second of every day! i have never felt this way about anyone in my life! i can’t stop smiling when im around you! i must look like an idiot!! i want to shout my love for you from the roof tops i want everyone to know! but… i can’t tell anyone.